Left...

Disgust in my mouth of filth like swallowing day old milk,

Milk the cows purple and blue high off of grass consumes,

Always high in the air weak away from problems fall off search for bud guy to go higher than the sky, lost sense of reality knowing that you'll never see God, 

Happy with life choices cause your way fails and you know longer care of opinions lost found and shaken

Such vulgar terms stuck in your heart, last years mess swept under the rug, under your soul but stil no one is told...

Steel walls cant admit that they were hurt, that they were burnt by the words spoken and unspoken, 

So they let that blue blood slip from their vains, the whole body filled with sadness, pain, deception...

Still hurt because no one understands the pain that you are going through, so you sit and watch your life move fly jump across the sky, 

No energy to get baq up and let love take you on a spin. 

How can you let someone, some action, some event rob you of all of the wonderful in the world. 

What you think that having everything all bottled in makes you strong? 

You are the weakest, most selfish, and cruelest alive. AND watching this doesn't help the bent?

This whole experience cant be heaven sent, yet you sit down and has called grief your home, alone, still and quiet as a mid winters stone...

So whats your next move? Whats your next step, cause your hardened heart is all you have left...

False Realities

What happens when you wake up? dreams don't last forever, seasons change in the midst of the storm.
Month 1-9 all ever changing amount of time. love living in a lie, false, wrong, everchanging into all the pain of the lies.
If you told me you loved me its all a lie, the littlest thing will drive you away, scared running form any pain that creeps your way.
Never listening to ur own heart but all the words that drift into your ears from the person on the other side of the wall.
Now aloof not even in your dark corner, stagnant but still searching for the light. heartbreak consumes your Heart mind and spirt, and your existance is now nothing but---->
It hurt and i cried, i hurt and it cried, i hurt and i cried, still standing still alive.
You said kant make it, i said "Watch me" smiling at the darkness ive faced and the light i am coming to witness
Dont tell that you care and that you'll be there always when people leave at the drop of a hat,
An apology dosen't even take credit anymore, why even spend time on people and invest in a relationship if people just leave,
Once again that revolving door fleets my soul and it happens all over again, spin, spinning, and revolving all over again,
What happend when you wake up? huh why walk in reality if being awake sucks, sleep or make yourself blind To all that you are forced to witness in the world,
Speak and say what you wana say, somebody will eventually listen to all that fills your heart...
8 faces on a blank stage, lost of script, alone, forced to fight alone and really face that word,
I love it, its what will help climb mountains swim in waterfalls and sing with the stars...
What if life was easy? Would you want to wake up?

Easy Access

Easy so easy technology, psychiatry, biology
Resources falling off a tree, band aids And ace bandage
Loose your job take a trip down to unemployment
Don't want a child just get an abortion or put it up for adoption
You want money become a prostitute and give yourself away to each and very tom dick and Harry to get paid
And even better yet if you want sex rape the next person that walks in your path
Hey you over there, do you want attention? Wear the least amount of clothing that you can, end every guy you walk past will say something guarantee
Wait you telling me you can't afford those new shoes? I got the simple solution, take them, steal them and call them yours
Freak  it, this whole world is screwed up everything is so wrong but it's become so right that every good thing is blinded by the world
Murdering someone is seen as a procedure
Sex is now a noun and no longer a verb
Who needs to read a book any more when everything is on the Internet?
Can't even respect yourself cause when you look in the mirror your reflection has become nothing.
Just like everybody else no individuality so you then do what everyone else does so that you can not only fi in but blend in
Everybody in this world is alike, you walk down the street and see so many different faces but everyone is that same
Who is gonna rise up and become an individual
Music is to be diverse, all I hear is ass sex and money, you get paid for garbage, waste of money
We pay people for selling us trash then we shake our ass for cash
Funny right, you don't even think about what your doing anymore, you don't even know why you do the things that you do? Habits, routine, and yet you still end up in the same ol spot.
You talk about feeling lost, lonely, and you can't even move anymore
When the weak can't move the strong have to help them move
Ahhh just walk in your destiny, and when your Finially in your calling, stop walking and run keep running until you have made a difference and you and your higher power are satisfyied
Then you can sit down relax and realize that your an individual and that you have made your mark.
Then pay it forward and leave the trash left behind

Future Flashback

I can make moments last forever, I can slow down time in my mind
Make the time cease to exist just so that I can live in the moment
If you wait in that time you and I can make a memory so that we can remember
Think back flash back December
NYC snow hood gloves hats boots cold but when we were together we made heat and we lived in the moment
Played it back in my head over and over I went with my heart, a vulnerable place my heart in a race against yours
And I saw you and you saw me, a different kind of vision right, like everything was ok, like everything had changed from the last time our eyes met
It was like everything was everything when we wer together
That conversation ohh how it put me on the floor, you hide so much inside but you told me and you saw me, secrets relinquished, and stories untold told,

I get you look up at that blue, smile cause of the world around you, trust because it's a must, believe because your hearts telling you to

Together not now but in time, it was just a memory that I hide in my heart, because only the future will hold why we are apart
I heard that it was more than a dream, more than what reality portrays it to be, more than just a movie scene, I felt it, the real deal, that's just what I see, tell me I'm not crazy for wanting to believe, it's all I have,
I'll be singing on that movie screen as the lead

Freeze Time

Why do people always run? It's life you got time to walk slowly, swiftly, and blow in the wind.
Who knows what's in store for tomorrow, always wanting to rush for the future
Listen let's wait and live in the moment, I mean the present is the time we live in.
Feel the beat of your heart make it rush or slow down
Pick up the pace stop fall think what makes you happy
Party love sex drugs people ahhhhh feel it in your heart and go crazy
Future is still gonna be there when you make it.
Love on one another and stop hating each other
Hear me every action makes a reaction, so react and just chill, fill, Jill, kill time
Epiphany just say thank you for everything you have and don't have, sing dance take pictures rock out loud
It's life and your meant to live it why not do it to the fullest